I love when readers send me their boudoir photos and share what it was like to pose for them, and how the experience affected the way they perceive themselves. Jill is one of those readers, another “sexy woman of a certain age” who proves that mature women are still sexual beings who delight in the pleasure of their bodies.
I had a boudoir shoot for my husband’s 50th birthday gift. It was the first naughty photo shoot I’d ever done and I was scared out of my mind as a 49-year-old who is a bit too short and curvy. I felt really brave while doing it, though, and this particular photo is one of the best photos I’ve ever taken. I just love it and part of me is sad that I can’t share it with the rest of the world.
My husband seemed to like the photos that came out of the shoot, but he didn’t make a huge deal out of it. I didn’t get the “wow” reaction from him that I thought I would. His reaction kind of ruined it for me. I thought I’d feel sexy and young enough to still turn heads, but instead I felt like the same old me.
I suppose what I learned is that you have to see yourself through your own eyes and not the reflection of someone else’s eyes. I shouldn’t have let my husband take away the sexy me I was feeling. I’ve also learned that sexy isn’t a body type or size or wearing a certain outfit or color. Sexy is a state of mind and in the year since I took that photo I’ve often thought back to that shoot and grinned with pride and what I was brave enough to do in my last year as a 40something.
Today — at 50 — I think I might look better than I ever have.