When I saw 53-year-old Karen’s boudoir photos in my Facebook feed, I immediately asked photographer Jen Trombly of Breathless Boudoir to put me in touch with her. In her status, Jen had mentioned that Karen had never seen herself as beautiful until her shoot, so when I wrote to Karen, I asked her to tell me how the shoot changed the way she felt about herself. I was stunned — but not surprised — to learn that she had always felt invisible. Women are so hard on themselves. We hold ourselves to an impossible standard, and completely miss what’s uniquely beautiful in each of us. Karen’s story is a wonderful example of how doing a boudoir shoot can liberate a woman from the inner critic who tells her she’s not enough.
I had thought about doing a boudoir shoot for years but I always thought I was too heavy or out of shape to do one. Now I felt I was too old. I surfed the Internet and came across Breathless Boudoir and their photos were beautiful and classy so I talked myself into it. I had recently lost some weight so I figured it was now or never! I have always felt average and invisible. Always someone else’s daughter, wife, or mother. Somewhere along the way I lost myself.
On the way there I was actually nauseated thinking about whether I could do it or not. I was not sure I could be nude in front of someone other than my husband. I was terrified that the photos would look horrible and I would look like a joke.
It turned out to be amazing. The photographers made me feel very comfortable and most of the time I didn’t even think about being naked. The photos came out stunning and I could not believe it was me in them. I actually teared up when I viewed them.
I realized that beauty and sensuality truly does come from within, how you feel about yourself. I know my body isn’t perfect. It never has been and never will be. A woman’s body is beautiful no matter what shape you are in, and you need to embrace what God has given you. I feel so much better about myself than I did before. My husband always tells me I’m beautiful, but I never believed him. I still don’t think I’m beautiful, but I’m okay with that. I am a strong, healthy woman who hopes to be a good example to my children. I am not defined by my unflat stomach and not perky breasts! I am still a very sensual being.
I am 53 years old and the mother of two daughters who I hope will one day do boudoir shoots for themselves!
Photography by Breathless Boudoir